Getting Organized (again)

In honor of trying to get my life together, I've decided to plan my week's adventures. My sister in law gave me this great little planner that I have hanging on my fridge and its going to be a bit of a challenge to actually USE it.
One aspect of it is menu planning. I do this in my head and sometimes on my blackberry calendar. Many times, the other folks who eat in our house don't agree with my choices, and since they do the cooking usually-my ideas get nixed. (thats because I don't plan things out in advance, but I digress). I have planned a menu for the next week and I am proud of it!
Tonight: leftovers
Sunday: roasted chicken thighs and potatoes
Monday: vegetarian chili and corn bread
Tuesday: chicken casserole
Wednesday: grilled cheese and tomtato soup
Thursday: ginger spiced waffles and fruit
Friday: spaghetti & meat balls
Saturday: homemade pizza
A lot of this can be made out of my pantry too, so that makes life even easier.
On this handy dandy pad (can you tell we are watching Blues Clues right now?) there also is a spot for housework. This again, is a huge challenge for me. I will admit that I have a bit of a martyr complex when it comes to doing chores (why can't anyone EVER help me? I have to do laundry again?! grumble grumble grumble complain complain complain). Personally, after working all day I would rather collapse on the couch and not do anything, but if I do that everything devolves into chaos and then my house could be a candidate for clean sweep or hoarders. Its a constant challenge for me. The other part of the equation is hoping others buy into my plan. I have this notion that everyone has to be on board with my ideas in order for me to do it. Basically I have to be like Nike and just do it, rather than waiting for someone else to ok my plan. I am a procrastinator too. When I was in college, I used to say by waiting for the last minute caused me to do my best work. As I've gotten older, that constant reliance on adrenoline has caused me to be stressed out and emotionally drained. I wind up crisis cleaning on a regular basis because I don't keep up with things regularly. I mean, it only takes a few minutes everyday to just tidy up...but I keep saying I don't have time, I'm too tired, whine whine whine (and no cheese to go along with it). Its the adult version of cramming for an exam when you haven't been studying all semester long. I wonder why I am depleted every day, since I am in a constant state of fight or flight. So, on my new planner I've got a room of the day listed-monday is the living room, tuesday is the kitchen, wednesday are the bedrooms, thursday is the bathrooms, friday is the lower level. I mean, it will take all of 15-20 minutes to do a little cleaning (like polishing furniture). I have to keep reminding myself its for my family, and not just because its my "job".
I guess I have this really bad mindset. Like in the story of the ant and grasshopper, I always wanted to be the ant but I couldn't break my grasshopper habits. Its not like you have to make a path through our house or anything, but I am unhappy with how I maintain it.
I have to admit that I've been trying to do Flylady's system for years but I don't really do it-its all halfhearted attempts. I think there is a certain element of punishment involved as well-if I can't do it the "right" way, why bother...and once again, the little man is picking up on my bad habits. I have all these ideas about fun things we can do as a family or craft projects, and then I don't implement them. There's like an invisible wall there and I just can't break through.
I can keep saying that today is the day that I am going to do things, but if I am not going to get up off my duff, it won't be. I have to set a good example for the little guy. I can't expect him to clean up after himself if I don't. I can't expect him to be more responsible if I'm not. I can't expect him to be a good steward if I'm not.
There are so many things that I need to do for me to lead my best life now, and its a matter of changing my mindset. Its a matter of me stopping thinking that I am being punished by cleaning the house or doing laundry, but instead blessing my family by having a clean house and clean clothes. Instead of complaining that I don't have x y or z, I should be counting my blessings. Instead of complaining that I don't have time, I need to make the time to do things-I can choose to get up and tidy up rather than sitting on the couch and doing nothing...the list is endless. I know in my head what needs to be done, its a matter of doing it. Today may be a new start, I just have to make it so...