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Tuesday, February 14, 2012

I will love you always and forever

Until I became a mother, I really had no idea what love truly meant. I knew I loved my family, and I loved my husband, but the love for my son is on a way different level. This is I'd go to the ends of the earth for him love. This is I'd take a bullet for him love. This is I'd do anything for him love.
Most people say this love forms during the antepartum time. As the baby grows inside you, so does your love. For dads, it's because you helped make that magnificent creature.
In my case, my son came to me at age 4, and it still happened. I was much more overprotective when he was younger, but as he has grown up I've learned to relax more. I'm not as much of a helicopter, hovering. I'm more of a free range parent now.
Ive had some incredibly insensitive women tell me that I couldn't possibly have that type of bond with my son, because I didn't give birth to him (this was the same cackling coven that told me I'm not a real mom because I adopted). I know what is going on in my home, not everyone can say that.
Our bond grew strong because I've advocated for him. I've fought for my son to have opportunity and experiences comparable to that of a non autistic child. Before he was verbal I was his voice. He has defined my life. My priorities shifted, and im the better person for it.
Thanks to my son, I've learned more about star wars, Mario and hot wheels than I ever cared to admit. I found my ministry with rhythms of grace, and I am in awe and wonder by little man's level of faith and spirituality. Ive also experienced the world through his eyes which is an awesome experience. I am truly privileged to be along for the ride!
I'm blessed beyond compare by being his mother. And I will love him always and forever.

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