more snow!

Its been a horrible winter on the plains, and I think that





We have a gentle snow falling here on the plains. The Little Man is currently playing Lego Star Wars on X Box and the Big Man is playing against him. I'm up in the living room with the puppy dog, watching Nat Geo
all about Mary Magdalene. My day has been consumed with the fact that my sister has decided to drive from New Jersey to West Virginia in a blizzard. So somehow I've been entrusted with managing her trip...don't know why its up to me, being 1300 miles away from all that, but it is. So I've been getting phone calls & having to look at traffic cams, and dealing with verbal abuse. Basically, if she doesn't pull off the highway soon, it can be life or death but she doesn't see it like that at all. Nor does she understand what she's doing to our mother and how upset she is by this little sojourn. I mean, common sense its a blizzard you don't drive if you don't have to let alone go 900 miles in it. But thats not for me to decide. And getting yelled at by a 20 year old is not my idea of fun.
Basically my plan for today was to take a nice, cuddly nap under a warm fuzzy blanket and maybe bake. Instead my blood pressure has been sky high all day because of my sister's trip and I can't relax. Believe me, I've tried to just let it go and be done with it, but that's not happening. Everytime I've tried to lay down, the phone has rung and I've been stressed out even more. Frustrating, yes. Everyone has their role in their family and mine is to be the fixer. Its my job to make everything better and make things right for all. I am the caregiver and caretaker. My role has its perks sometimes, but for the most part its a pretty heavy burden. I just want to enjoy life but there's always some sort of drama that needs to be fixed.
I don't know if a lot of other people have the same issues in their families (feedback anyone?) but I would love to be the wallflower for a change. I just want to be the wife and mom for a little bit and not have to deal with all the auxiliary stuff that seems to land in my lap.
I wonder if this is why I feel so drained and tired all the time. I think it might have a lot to do with it-I'm carrying the load for so many other people.