Whole Hearted

This has been a pivotal week in my world. I've stuck to eating my values, and slowly I'm phasing out all the bad for me choices (good bye coke, it's been real). I'm adding in better for me choices. Im doing things that are better for me, period.
It's been a paradigm shift for me.
I'm just really tired of being tired. I'm tired of half heartedly going through the motions and wondering why I'm not successful. Im tired of backing down and letting myself be bullied by others.
I've been the proverbial door mat for most of my life, and I'm really sick of it. I'm tired mostly of feeling degraded, because some people dont feel I'm "good enough".
Bottom line:
(to quote Stuart Smalley)
I'm smart enough
I'm pretty enough
And dog gone it, people like me.

It was the realization that I've wasted so much time and energy trying to get some people to appreciate me that kick started this. I had one of those shower epiphanies when I realized how much power I've let others have.

I ask that my son stand up to those who bully him and put him down. That was when I realized I wasn't doing it either. I need to practice what I preach. I need to stand up for myself and not feel guilty when I do.

It's plugging the hole in my soul. Food won't do. Shopping won't do it. Avoiding it won't do it either.