Thursday, March 26, 2015
Driving home from work tonight, singing along to Carly Simon's you're so vain, when I happened to have looked up at the exact line-clouds in my coffee-and saw the sunlight streaming through. It's one of those God moments...a reminder to look up...and see such magnificence...#nofilter #beautyhunting
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Monday, March 23, 2015
Out of all the yamas, I struggle with kshama the most. It is translated from the Sanskrit as meaningpatience, releasing time, functioning in the now. For a type A, compulsive planner like me, this seems like the most impossible of tasks. I don’t have time to be patient.
Until I had a few health crisis. Then all bets were off, and I had to recalibrate my life. I stopped the glorification of busy. I began to focus on the here and now, and being more mindful. I also stopped over scheduling my child. He needed time to be a kid, to explore the world and most importantly, to play.
It isn’t always easy, it didn’t happen overnight and in fact, it’s still a work in progress.
I do plan out my days, weeks and months, but leave a lot of wiggle room. I try to not have more than one activity on the weekends, unless it’s something fun like gardening or hiking or a picnic. I have stepped away from many of the organizations I was heavily involved with, because it was taking up too much of my time. It was hard (and scary!) at first, since much of my identity was tied to what I was working on. I spent quite a bit of time zoning out on the couch, surfing the web and what not, but then as time went on, it was less and less. I was reconnecting to my life.
I spent time in prayer and meditation, and found that still small voice speaking to me. Sometimes it sounded like my son, other times it was a cool breeze in the woods. It could even sound like the trade winds in Hawaii. The most important thing was that I listened. Intently. Much of the stress in my home disappeared. The household ran more smoothly and inefficiently. There was calmness and peace.