Let it snow...

We got more snow overnight, and I do not have the option of having my husband drive me today. In fact, I've got a lot of issues with today overall...Big Man has to go to Omaha, driving 3 hours each way for a job related class. Did I mention major snow storm with blizzard conditions? Yeah, that just makes it more nerve wracking for me. I'm going to be on edge until he walks back through the garage door that he is home safe with us.
So, I have to step it up and pick the little man up after school today. That will require me to drive, in the snow, which is right up there with getting a root canal. I just have to suck it up and deal. At least once he's in the car, I only have a couple of blocks to drive with him, so I can worry less.
On a positive note, I have been named PTA secretary. I am very excited!! This actually is a huge deal for me-my chance to shine. I feel part of the in crowd now! Its like everything is starting to come together for me, and a lot of that is centered around the Little Man. He can come to the meetings (free child care!) and this is all about making his school experience better.
I know that this will keep me busy-between PTA, youth group and other church obligations, working full time, my March of Dimes involvement, not to mention my household obligations-life is going to be rocking & rolling. I do have to work on keeping up with household chores on a daily basis. Its very hard after coming home from work to clean, but I know its something I have to start doing. I think there's just this mental block that I need the cleaning fairy to come in and fix it for me. But in reality, I am the cleaning fairy and its my responsibility to do all this myself. Its up to me that the laundry gets done, the bathrooms get cleaned, homework gets done...and I know that I fall short of what needs to be done each & every day. I need to swish & swipe the bathrooms, tidy up the kitchen, swifter the floors, do laundry and keep the kitchen humming. I do little bits & pieces and everyday I hope that today is THE day that it all clicks. I've been responsible for myself for a very long time now, and its never clicked for me...my goal is for my son to grow up knowing that he is loved and well cared for and that he is always secure in that. I don't want him to feel that he is only loved if he makes good grades or keeps his room clean or performs like a trained monkey in some other aspect of his life. I want him to feel the unconditional love all the time, even when he's being disciplined. I also want him to have great memories of his childhood with his parents, knowing that we spent time together and had a blast. For me, cleaning is really far down that list. Maybe this will all click when the little dude is college. Until then, I'm just going to enjoy my son :)