Closer

Onto Nine Inch Nails song titles....
Last night the little man had his spring concert at school. In the morning, he was practicing while he was getting dressed. He was very excited about it and couldn't wait. Fast forward to after school, the big man calls to tell me that our son did not want to go-no way no how. Needless to say, I was extremely disappointed and upset. However, after a little convincing, we all came to agreement to go.
None of us were disappointed either. With first graders, they are all so cute-no matter how off key or off beat they are. My son was the star on the triangle! When they came out, he was frantically scanning the audience for us and I could see him starting to panic when he didn't see us right away. As soon as he found us out there-with multiple cameras, cell phones and camcorders all recording for posterity-he had the biggest smile and completely relaxed. He is just the cutest ever :)
Its Wednesday and its the middle of the week. Its a very big hump to climb for all of us. Big Man has is 12+ hour day today, so he's completely exhausted when he gets home. Meanwhile, its usually a busy day for me as well at work. Little Man has a busy day too-with both food and speech therapies at school. Add to it the vibe in our house that we're all tired and it makes for everyone dragging. However, Little Man & I can bounce back fairly quickly because our days our not as physical as the Big Man's...and he needs his rest.
On Wednesdays at church during Lent there is a series of programs for both adults and children. It was something at Trinity that made me look forward to Lent-the classes or discussion or whatever you want to call it was a great way to deepen my faith and have some social time too. Calvary (my current church home) also has these programs and I haven't been able to make it this Lent. But I am bound and determined to go tonight. Little Man & I can have fun, and the Big Man can get some uninterrupted rest. After helping in Sunday School this past week I can see that he likes the whole church-y thing, so it should be ok to convince him to go.
I think part of it for him is deep down inside I think he's afraid if he goes somewhere he's not going to come back home. I guess when every child's greatest fear actually happens to you, there's a lot of issues regarding trust. Its almost like he panics that he's going away forever, which is the farthest from the truth. There are lots of things that we miss out on because he doesn't want to leave the house. I know that decompressing when you get home is important and I am all for it too, but there are times when he needs to do other things as well.
But back to today...its Wednesday and i need to get through today. I'm a little anxious over how things look around here and I need to kick it up a notch to get it neat and tidy again. The laundry is caught up but needs to be folded and put away. There are recyclables that need to be put outside, a kitchen and two bathrooms that need to be tidied up. I'm having lunch with my mother today, and am looking forward to that. I'm trying to get the coffee in me and get going. It seems that my yoga daily dozen isnt really doing the job it should be doing and I am still on the stiff and achy side. I have some work to do for both church & PTO tonight and tomorrow night. I need to get my butt on the treadmill. I also need to stop and get a few things in the grocery store on the way home tonight (milk is the big one) and buy gas. Life is good.