Whatcha Want?

As I am cycling through Gwen Stefani song titles for my blog posts...its Tuesday.
That being said, today is a brand new day. I had my life care eval yesterday, and I had some negative changes from last year to this year. My cholesterol and triglycerides and fasting glucose went up. I've been eating a lot more junk. Its only recently that I've been back to being healthy after a few months of treating myself rather poorly. I will be the first to admit that I love bacon and sausage, and its very convienent to go buy it in the cafeteria. However, that has raised my cholesterol and triglycerides. The inactivity that I have been guilty of for far too long has contributed to this backsliding. My actual weight really hasn't changed, and seeing my BMI in black & white is enough to get me to do something.
I love my son more than anything else in the world, other than my husband. I want to be the best mom I can be. In order to do that, I need to take care of myself. If I don't, its not fair to him. That's why I push myself to clean up the house, and cook and work out when I don't feel like it. Its hard working full time and trying to juggle all that I have going on. I am successful most of the time, but there are times when I feel that I am just treading water. I do feel that I put up barricades to subconsciously block me from being successful. I attract negativity and negative people like a moth to a flame. For example, I really like walking on my breaks (once in the morning, once in the afternoon) but I couldn't really tell you the last time I did it. It really makes a difference for me, and I like how it makes me feel. Just like when I stretch at my desk. Or take the stairs rather than the elevator. Or do my scrapping at lunchtime rather than zoning out. There are so many things that I can do that make my life happier and full of joy. Yet, I tend to stop myself from enjoying that part of me.
I talk a lot about changing all this, yet it doesn't really ever change entirely.I need to take that next step. I need to get over the proverbial hump in my life to improve and make life better for everyone around me.
I want the little man to be self confident, and to take it to the next level too. He is doing so well in school and continues to improve day by day. He's such an overall good kid too, and I am truly blessed by it. I know I've got it good, and I don't take that for granted at all. I can't celebrate him enough either. He makes it easy to be a mom-and I know that very few people can say that.
Tonight is his concert and he was practicing his songs in the bath last night. It was too cute. I am so excited for him-and that we get to watch him perform. Its one of those parental rewards we have!
More to come on the concert..