Not Fade Away

The little man got a lesson in the life cycle of fish this weekend. All four of them died. Needless to say, he's devastated. He was crying when the first three died yesterday morning, and when the last one (cody with a c)died last night, he was devastated. I wish I could help him deal with his grief, but this is something that has to be processed on his own.
Add to it, our cat Buddy who is now 17, I think is slowly fading away. She's not really eating anymore, and she is getting thinner and thinner. She has lead a good life I think, since we rescued her off kitty death row at the Burlington County Animal Shelter. She has not really enjoyed the puppy dog as much as we had hoped she might, but they've made their own peace.
I have the day off today, and I get to spend it with my little man (the reason why I'm off). I have a little housework to do to get ready for company on Friday. Need to prep dinner (beef stir fry, rice and veggies). Do some laundry. Get on the treadmill. Do some yoga. Prep dinner for tomorrow night too. Email the PTO minutes to the board. Go to the dentist. Make thank you cards with the little man.
I have issues with dentists. I think its genetic, because my whole family has issues. I didn't go to the dentist on a regular basis as a kid, and as a result my mouth is really messed up as an adult. I had issues when my braces came off and some enamel stripped off my teeth, which has been a struggle ever since because my teeth look odd. I actually fear the dentist to be perfectly honest, and I'm going to be fixated on this normal, routine visit all day. I'm going in for a cleaning-that's it. But I am still stressed over it. I know that its good for me, because if your teeth and gums are healthy, it reduces your risk of heart disease and stroke. Since both run in my family, I need to do all I can to be the healthiest my body will allow.
That includes eating right and exercising. In theory, that's not so hard. Its pretty easy to eat more fruits and vegetables, not eat junk and drink water. On the other hand, I really struggle with it-and my little guy sees what food choices we all make at dinner every night. I try to have at least 2 vegetable servings on my plate. I try to eat cleaner over all, and take my vitamins. I try to exercise more, but that's a mental thing. Honestly, I really do like to work out, I just don't do it more. I actually love running, and I feel so good when I get to the next level. I love how yoga makes me feel. I can't explain it, but there's this electric current that runs through me after a good yoga session. I also like pilates-it moves me in a different way than say running or the bowflex or weights do. At this point in my life, I am not interested in doing things to lose weight or get cut, but instead to be healthy. As I get older, I get more achy in the morning and I rely on yoga to stretch me out and help alleviate the pain. I need to get my treadmill time in so I can get up to 10000 steps every day (most days I am in the 6-8000 range, which is not enough). I need to add weight bearing exercise to help build stronger bones (I don't want to start developing osteopenia or osterporisis). And I don't want to spend my 40's being obese or even overweight.
I've battled my weight my whole life, and I'm tired of it. I know that being a hardbody is never going to happen for me, and that's ok. But I really want to do all I can do to be healthy. That's the key for me. I need to make better choices-is this going to support my goal of being healthy? Is it going to make a difference in my life? That's what is the hardest thing for me-taking the moment to ask myself these questions. The little man gets this covered in school a lot-and for him its second nature to ask himself those questions. And he does make really good choices. I don't have soda in the house, so for him its a special treat. He loves sugar free orange jello. He likes fruit. He moves a lot. A lot a lot a lot. He's always on the go. Even when he's reading his toes are tapping or he's wiggling a little bit. He burns a lot of calories every day.
Speaking of burning calories, I need to get my day going. I slept in this morning, and it felt great, but now I've got to get a move on it to get done all I want to today.