I realized that I have not been on here all week basically. Its not for a lack of motivation or trying. Our cable/internet was out on Wednesday morning due to upgrades that were supposed to be done by 5 am. When we left the house at 7:30 it was still out. Little Man was upset because he gauges his morning by what is on the TV. I have been sleeping in all week as well because I've been going to bed late. My house is a mess and I feel like the inmates are running the asylum.
So this weekend is all about regrouping. I need to get a handle back on my life. I need to get things re-organized and back on track because I can't take this anymore. Its diminishing my quality of life. I really need the Big Man to buy into this and support me 100% to get the new ideas implemented. My big plans include having a chore chart for the FAMILY and a job jar. I need for all of us to take resposnibility for our home and messes.
First order of business-dividing up chores in each zone of the house. We can all do something to help clean the house. I will admit that I am incredibly resentful that I seem to do the bulk of the cleaning, and have to be the bad guy and nag the little man to pick up. Its poisoning my attitude towards life, and I am not enjoying it. I whine about having to work all day and then I have to do blah blah blah when I get home, yadda yadda yadda. I really need an attitude adjustment.
Right now, its hard for me to make the positive changes that I need to because I am not filling my cup. I've been dealing with my back bothering me-and its this chronic ache. It doesn't seem like I can stretch it or move enough to make the pain lessen. I don't want to keep using tylenol & ibuprofin and icy hot to exist, so I've been dealing with the pain on its own-and that's making me very edgy and cranky.
Add to it the severe lack of sleep I've had all week, and mommy is not very happy. And she's letting the world know it.
But there have been a lot of positives too. I've been able to scrap 7 pages at lunch the last 3 days, which is very exciting for me. I've buckled down and just done it, and I am amazed at the results. I've deepened into a few yoga asanas that have stretched other parts of my body (just not my back). I've eaten healthy all week at work. I started the 30 day challenge, and finding new ways to add movement to my day.
I've taken care of some things that I had been putting off and it feels good to cross things off the master to do list.
And having made the commitment to my family, I'm feeling less stressed. I am enjoying being home with them, and not really missing out on anything.
Tonight is Free Friday at the Science Center so its date night for me and the little man. We're going to go and explore and then go to the diner for ice cream. It should be a fun night for us. I miss doing date night with him. Several years ago, the big man would work until 11PM on Wednesdays, so the little man & I had date night then. We'd go out for dinner and then go & do something. Sometimes it was Barnes & Noble, sometimes it was the play place at the mall or mcdonalds. Sometimes it was the park, but we did a lot of bonding those nights. Then schedules changed, and those things stopped. I think its time to start again.
Women of God can never be like women of the world. The world has enough women who are tough; we need women who are tender. There are enough women who are coarse; we need women who are kind. There are enough women who are rude; we need women who are refined. We have enough women of fame and fortune; we need more women of faith. We have enough greed; we need more goodness. We have enough vanity; we need more virtue. We have enough popularity; we need more purity. Margaret D. Nadauld
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