Time, Ticking Away

Its Saturday, and despite not having work work to do today, I still have other work going on. We're setting up for vacation Bible School today, and I am a little nervous about taking my vision and making it a reality. Add to it, I am nervous about the whole she-bang, and I'm feeling a little um, scared.
But it will all be good.
I've also been working the phones for youth group and PTO to get things rolling for that. Trying to get stuff lined up for donations from the family game night in December; the Harvest Hullabaloo's hayride and DJ equipment; skyforce night in February; lots and lots of other details that I am usually not very good at.
Actually, that's not true. I tend to fluctuate between detail and not detailed oriented. It also seems to match where I am in terms of self esteem. When I'm feeling groovy, I'm on top of the world and get so much done. But I give power to way too many people to affect my moods and behavior. Basically, if someone makes a crack I take it to heart and let it ruin my day. I am pretty thin-skinned I suppose.
I am trying so hard to not cause self esteem issues for my son. I want him to know that he's safe and secure and loved. I want him to understand that its unconditional love too, no strings attached. There are enough problems in the outside world, I don't need them to infilitrate our home.
I try to make our home a sanctuary. I want my boys to feel comfortable and at peace when they are here. I want them to not have to worry about anything and to meet their needs.
Women talk, and I do my fair share of chatting with the girls. We talk about life and parenting and homemaking. And we talk about how we all struggle with the same things-body image, time management, homemaking and balancing it all with work and other commitments. At least I know I am not alone, and that other women struggle with the same things I do.