Voodoo of his Love

Have you ever felt like someone has put a spell on you? Made a voodoo doll of you? There are days, weeks, months, YEARS even that I have felt like this. There are times I have to admit that it seems as if there has been a dark cloud following me and trying to steal my sunshine.
Honestly, its only the last few days that I feel almost "normal" again, and I haven't felt this giddy and happy in years. And I mean, I am just happy and in love with the world. I know that once I put my ducks in a row, and starting using my 3 core wishes as my belief system, things immediately improved.
But, as always, there are haters out there. I know that being bubbly and perky annoy some people, and that really is their issue. I am no longer going to change just because it makes someone else happy. Looking at the world through doom and gloom and misery really isn't a great way to live your life. I know that when I am having a down day, it does drain me and it sucks the life and energy out of me.
Speaking of sucking life and energy out of people...there is a very real phenomenon called psychic vampires. They do exist, and their purpose and how they "feed" is draining people of their energy, their vitality, working on sucking out their souls. I seem to attract these to me, because there are some people that I deal with who just exhaust me. Maybe they are overly needy and everything is a crisis with them, or its just they never see the good in the world.
Many years ago, I had a "friend" like that. She never saw the good in anything, and nothing was ever happy or positive. She complained about everything, and then when I grew tired of having the life sucked out of me, she grew very angry. Very, very angry. It was scary angry and I felt as if I was being stalked for a brief time there. All because I told her I was done with the doom and gloom routine.
There are so many people I know that wallow in the poor, poor pitiful me routine and it truly is sad. They are not living their best life because they are so concerned with what's wrong they never see what's right. Its like there is this dark spell that has enchanted them, and they are so caught up in all the bad in the world. But there is so much good to be had out there!
I could have just wallowed in my self pity with all that has happened to me in my life. I have had my fair share of bad things happen, and its been hard to swallow at times. There were long, dark stretches where it felt as if I would never see the sun again. Rehashing the past won't change it; all it would do is make the pain and suffering bubble up to the surface again. It would be great to have a rewind/reverse button on life but that doesn't exist. I've learned over time, focusing on all the bad things that happened in my life will just make me bitter.
Being bitter requires expending energy. So does being happy. However, bitterness needs more of an effort, and that is an effort I am not really willing to put forth. The other day I made the mistake of having a conversation with someone quite bitter. I could feel the life suck out of me during this conversation and I really regretted doing it. She did not have one good thing to say about anything, and it was about 7 minutes of how much the world stinks. Personally, I thought this conversation was 6 minutes too long, and it truly ruined my lunch. In my job, I deal with a lot of folks with chronic health conditions and some of them are facing terminal illness. These folks, if anyone should be bitter, have every right to be angry and bitter about their situation. However, the vast majority of them remain happy, optimistic (even when they start hospice)and full of joy. I want to shake these doom & gloom folks and tell them that your petty little problems really don't matter in the grand scheme of life.
Heading into the holidays last year, I let this attitude of doom and gloom overwhelm my life. I don't know why or how it happened-maybe someone cast an evil spell on me or something, but it did. Overnight, things changed for me and I was not happy about the situation. Deep down inside, I knew I was the same happy, loving, bubbly person but for some reason or another I was so beat down that I succumbed to the darkness.
Darkness falls, but joy comes in the morning.
Eventually, the sun rose again in my life, and I am feeling like I am my old self. It gave me the energy and motivation to clean out the clutter in my life. There were so many things that I was holding onto, because it reminded me of a time or a place in my life-most of which weren't very happy memories either-but now they are either gone or packed up ready to go. So, I am in the process of getting rid of the darkness in my life and let the sun shine in.
Its amazing that over the last few weeks, as I started to let go of the clutter (physical, mental, spiritual) other things began to happen positively. Somehow, without even trying I've lost weight. I am naturally gravitating towards healthier foods. I am moving more naturally, not forcing myself to. I am tidying up as I go, and I've gotten so much done without even trying. Its an amazing concept-you open yourself up to happiness and bliss, and it comes back to you 10 fold. Like attracts like, and when you are sending out a message of love, that's what you will receive in return.
Breaking the spell turned out to be easy.