Rambling (wo)Man

I made it through Wednesday, which is always a plus. Some people don't like Mondays, but I really, really dislike Wednesdays.

Mondays hold so much promise-for a new week, new beginnings. A fresh, clean slate to start over with.

Wednesdays mean that the Big Man works 12+ hours, and I feel bad for him, especially since he goes into work at 3 AM (which means he's up at 1:30 AM) Yes you read that correctly. He gets up at an insane hour, all so he has a chance to spend time with our son. That's the defination of a dad. He's willing to make all these sacrifices to have those precious moments with a special Little Man.

I am so blessed to be married to someone who is willing to sacrifice himself for his child (and wife). I know that there are some folks who might not appreciate it, but I sure as heck do. He's also willing to give me my mommy time to transition from work to home, even though he's probably double dog tired. That makes my heart sing.

Maybe its the wisdom from getting older (I am officially in a new demographic group now, you know) but I am realizing how fortunate I am. Its pretty awesome to be able to spend your life with someone who makes you laugh, shows you appreciation and recognizes your triumphs. And he's pretty darn good looking too! I have convinced myself that there are some people that are just jealous of the ease my Big Man & I have together. Are there things he does that irk me? Sure, otherwise I wouldn't be human. However, there are more good things that outweigh the negative and that's what makes it work. Most definately I do a lot of things that irk him, and we try to be our best to each other. Its when you let the little things grate on you that it causes problems.

I try to focus on the positive in the world, and I know when I'm looking at the glass as half full I need an attitude adjustment. I've needed that attitude adjustment-and its been in full swing. I'm feeling like I am in a good place right now, and its only getting better. All it took was taking a step back and reassessing my values and how everything matches with those values and goals. Does it bring peace, joy or serenity to my life? If not, then its not part of it.

So, its ok to throw things out. Its ok to say no to people. Its ok to take time for me. I think one of the reasons why I have such a high stress level all the time is the fact that I don't match my lifestyle to my values. Focusing on how everything in my life impacts the three values I hold dear (peace, joy and serenity) has made it easy to get rid of all the clutter. I don't need to hold onto something that doesn't bring any of those three to my life. I don't need to have people in my life that don't reflect those values either which makes my life simpler (but in a good way). Its eliminated the negativity hangovers too.

And its makes it easier to focus on what's truly important in my life-my boys. They are the reason I get up in the morning, and why I go to bed with a smile on my face. I do what I do for THEM, and it gives me purpose and meaning. My three favorite words I hear from them are "I love you" (or in the case of the puppy dog, woof woof lick)and it just makes a bad moment ok. That's what makes me tick, and I'm not ashamed to admit it.

Just a few ramblings from a getting tired mommy who needs her rest.