Groove Me

I made it through Wednesday. Had a new experience yesterday too-Little Man had his friend Romeo over for dinner. It was the first time, and I felt like a real mom. Actually, there are a few things that make me feel like a real mom from time to time.
I did make a realization yesterday. I had overslept-turned off the alarm instead of hitting snooze. But it was ok, because I was able to get us out of the house on time because of advance planning. Since I pick out clothes in advance, we were able to get dressed with no problems. I run on autopilot in the mornings, so I was able to tidy up the kitchen and bathrooms as well as make the beds without even thinking about it. I even put dinner together, which was pretty cool (leftovers made over-chicken rice casserole)
The fact that I didn't have a meltdown and basically crawl into a corner and cry over not waking up on time was huge progress. It made me feel like I was able to overcome some stress in my life. It gives me hope to conquer some of the other stressors I have as well.
I had a conversation with some of the members of Little Man's school team, since its only 2 weeks away. We made a decision that he will have an aide available, because this transition may be harder than any of us anticipate. Just knowing that makes me breathe a sigh of relief. Knowing that there are folks there supporting him and encouraging him to succeed is awesome. I still have in the back of my mind what a nightmare it was with his preschool teacher and how she didn't like me-therefore she took it out on my son. It could have completely turned him off of school forever because of her behavior. Thankfully, he loves school and loves to learn. I try to encourage it, but once again there are times I feel like there is a wall there.
Its like I can't get over it, and I struggle. I struggle with the fact that I want to do some things to try to make our lives better. However, it doesn't really happen because of one thing or another. The whole structure/routine thing is so very important, but some folks are more free spirited than others. The older the little man gets, the more I think he needs the routine and structure to keep it together and grow and learn. I do want to get him in the habit of using a calendar-which I need to get better about. I have everything in my head, which is pretty bad because the rest of the family doesn't know what's going on.
The fact that I was able to make it through yesterday and not have a little blip go wrong to cause my entire day to spiral out of control is HUGE. The fact that I was able to recover nicely and make it through the day was big.
Bigger yet-time to get my morning groove on, and get the day started, relatively stress free as well.