An Emotion Away

Its Monday, and after the weekend we had, I am glad that its over. Big Man had an infected sebaceous cyst, which required minor surgery on Friday night. That meant no big celebration for the Princess' birthday, but I don't think my husband planned to have this happen. Then yesterday, we got word that my brother in law & niece were in a serious accident, but by the grace of God walked away unharmed.
So it was a bit of a roller coaster, to say the least.
But its the beginning of a new week, new chances new opportunities. Another chance to shine.
Since we had an off weekend, I feel I didn't get anything done. I know I did, but it was less than I had anticipated. So once again I need to start the week off scrambling. I have a little extra housework to do, and then there is the matter of PTO, church, and other stuff to get done. Birthday party invitations, laundry, making dinners.
Life goes on.
Honestly, I have been trying to get back on track as Holly Homemaker, but I feel as soon as I get my head above water, someone pushes me back under. Its a struggle for me again. Basically, I feel as if me being successful and happy angers some people. Seriously.
So, me being the rebel that I am, will just continue being me and if that annoys people so be it.
I am convinced that there are some truly evil people out there, and its not about stealing my sunshine-its sucking the life out of others. You could almost feel the energy draining out of you when you deal with these folks. They have just this negative energy field around them-its like the black hole of people.
I still don't understand why some people are like this. I think I just assume that everyone looks on the bright side of life-that there isn't anything that bad that can't be overcome with joy. I do know that I try not to hold onto bad things, since that makes you bitter. That was a lesson I learned in senior high English class, when I wrote a short story and it was like vinegar. After I read it aloud in class, my teacher asked, "Are you bitter?"
It was at that point that I decided to make a change. I decided that I never wanted to be accused of being bitter-and believe me, there are a lot of things that could potentially cause me to be bitter. Instead I tried to find all the good in these experiences. Losing people that I love has made me an advocate for stroke care and a cure for cancer. Its also made me appreciate those still in my life. I am grateful for the fact that God gave me the chance to choose my child because its made me thankful for the opportunity and its made me work harder at being a mom. I am thankful I got married a little older than some because its made me appreciate my relationship with the Big Man.
It could have easily gone the other way, but for a conscious decision to not be that person. As the quote that tops this blog-there's enough badness in the world, lets try to be good (paraphrase). I just want to spread some good as I go, and some people think that its a crazy mission. So be it, but its my mission and I enjoy it.
Time to go share the joy and love