I am now just over 6 months post surgery, and I am finally starting to get back to feeling like me again. I don't have as many twinges of pain as I did. My energy level is coming back. The hormones are starting to regulate, although I do still have my days. I alternate between angry and very, very sad. I am still struggling with the post surgical body image...my scar is long, and I have no muscle tone in my stomach.
Things are progressing nicely, but I need to get me back.
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me, and the little man 2007 |
I don't have the quick answer, and I am pretty sure its going to require a lot of hard work and determination. I did run a 5k last month, but since then, I've stopped training to be perfectly honest.
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from google images |
When I hit the 6 month mark last week, I actually feel like I hit a wall. I came out of the surgery enthusiastic to work out, and then smack! I was more highly motivated a few months ago than I am today.
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pilates class-perfect for that tummy bulge
picture from google images |
So, I need to regain my motivation. I need to get back on track and get my body back. Its bathing suit season, I am spending a lot of time at the pool with the little man.
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lazy river at drake springs |
I won't say that I am embarrassed by how I look, I just know it can be better.
I don't have an easy answer on it either.
I do know that I am not feeling super comfortable in clothes right now
and I am not really feeling the love back.
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hole in one, mini golf at thunder road
pre-surgery August 2010 |
I am feeling LARGE.
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from google images |
Add to it, I am growing my hair out,
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I loved my hair like this! 2006 style, not the most flattering pose, but oh well! |
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camp kaleidoscope 2009 |
so I am at that awkward stage, where its not quite long,
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the long hair style I want |
but not quite short either.
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the hair style I've been wearing since, oh 1995 |
Its there. And its frustrating, because I can't quite do what I want with my hair-
like a great updo
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from google images |
or a messy braid.
Its Monday, the dawn of a new week. I am going to try my hardest to get back on track and get back to business.
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my love hate relationship, the elliptical |
Time to hit the elliptical.